Tuesday, September 30, 2008

That empty feeling...

Last month, I was on the brink of depression. I was almost into not-moving, don't-talk-to-me, don't-touch-me mode when i realized again God's grace. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for Him, I wouldn't have all these things... So i picked myself up, dust myself off and decided to walk again...

September is victorious for me, and I couldn't have done it without God.

Now I could look at things positively. Now I could take all the kasaba as challenge and encouragement. Now I think I can do all the things I need to do with enthusiasm. Now I can laugh heartily, smile, and reach out.

We fall down often and hurt ourselves a lot of times. Maybe others have fallen way below than me and their hurts are greater. But like Ralph Waldo Emerson quoted,
"Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."

I'd like to share the words from Max Lucado's book, A Gentle Thunder:

"... Now you are wiser. You've learned to go slowly. You are careful. You are cautious, but you're also confident. You trust the rope. Though you can't see your Guide, you know Him. You know he is able to keep you from falling. You're only a few more steps from the top. So whatever yo do, DON'T QUIT. Though your falls are great, His strength is greater. YOU WILL MAKE IT. YOU WILL SEE THE SUMMIT. YOU WILL STAND AT THE TOP. And when you get there, the first thing you'll do is join with others who have made the climb and sing this verse:

To Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before His glorious presence without fault and with great joy--to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! AMEN! (Jude 24)"

That empty feeling is now slowly fading away...